Experience...

jz hear of 1 phrase:
when u r in sadness,
pls dun alwayz care and think onli of ppl advantages...

when i hear tis,
i jz silently agree deep in my heart,
i jz experience,
although i nt hopin tat ther wil be a return,
bt,
ppl gvin the feelin to me is bad,
ppl wil nt fel tat u r gud,
wil nt thanks for ur sacrifices,
wil nt thk tat u r tat 'generous'...

hmphh...
i thk i should start to apply tis in my life,
when i in sadnes,
i should take care of myself more,
thk of myself more....

偶然的一句话...

今天，
打开电视，
看了一集戏，
偶然让我不得不认同这一段话：
为什么某人会那么迫切被爱？
是因为那人缺乏自信，
然而，
为了让自己感觉到自己的存在感，
就很渴望被爱的那一份感觉...
但是否想过，
要人家感觉我们的存在，
是不是应该从自己开始，
尊重自己的存在感呢？

这段话真得让我顿时陷入深思状态，
哈哈...

我认为我正是那种人，
尤其是感情方面，
因此，
我常将自己围起来，
不会投入太多感情在那些刚认识的感情里，
然而，
我也不会自动去走近他人...

真的有点感到茅盾，
因为我处事时，
鲜少出现这种情况，
但无论在哪一方面的感情，
亲情也好，
友情也罢，
我都有点处于被动状态，
我必须靠我的好友，
才能找到新朋友，
更别说爱情了...

踏出第一步，
我往往需要人在身旁鼓吹才行，
否则我当然能闪则闪啦...
:)

Wat a fun day...

haha...
ytd jz went sunway lagoon,
crazy fer 1 whole day,
reali feelin tired,
reali enjoy bein ther,
playin wiz frenz,
a reali fun day...

LOL...
found out tat after let go of smth,
its felin nice,
nt tat stress adi,
the problem jz solve in time,
then it let me reali enjoy the trip,
my skin bcum so black adi,
bt its ok,
LOL...
^.^

事情总算告一段落了...

经过长久以来的疑虑，
今天终于能解开了，
通完那通电话后，
整个人都松了下来，
事情是时候告一段落了...

我太了解此人的性格了，

了解到不知如何与此人沟通，

未来的事无人得知，
只求友谊长存，
我依然还是我，
我执著我的执著，
感觉成熟了点，
心灵路途上又完成了一站，
下一站的挑战无人知晓，
要向下一站出发咯！！！

Sry...i'm nt in phase...

i'm so sorry tat thes days i reali nt in phase...
minor things can make me bcum so sensitiv,
easily get angry thes days,
easily do s2pid things thes days,
sumtime reali think tat dun wanna do al thes works lar,
so tired of it,
hope tat thes days thos ppl wil nt irritant me,
then i might be calm down,
haiz...

命运弄人阿！！！

这世上，
真得这么巧吗？
越是不想越会出现...

我只能说：
我不想遇见，
不想知道，
我也不想去面对这人！

真不知该怎样去面对未来那么多的可能性，
唯求上天能放过我就好了...

wat is impossible?

i reali confused nw,
my feelin is mixed up,
wat is meant by impossible?
is it reali everyth automaticaly bcum my responsiblity,
y?
i always ask myself,
i even said tat i'm nt tat wise and clever,
y?
everybd jz say tat i mz do it,
if i din,
its my false...

am i dun hv the right to say no?
am i reali so s2pid until dun knw how to refuse?
i am...

i jz dun wanna to b angry easily,
so,
i jz chose to b dumb,
to b an idiot,
jz bcoz i dun wanna argue...

and,
is it sumth tat we hv so frequently,
it wil bcum worthless?
i totaly agree,
coz i am the 1...

i jz gv out wat i knw,
the response to me is nothin,
am i the 1 who dun hv the choices tat other hav?
jz bcoz in others' eyes,
i am clever and nth i fear of,
i should b like tat,
and i should do tis and tat without havin my own intends...

i can say tat nw i hav the power to control,
bt once in a while,
it mz hav words tat spontaneously hurt me without bein known...

should i shouldnt b tat generous and friendly?
i dun knw,
coz i knw i am the type who hard to change tis features,
bt,
i fel tat its reali time for me to change...

sumhow,
i fel tat i should set more privacy to myself,
i should kep more feature in my own,
nt bein shown to ppl...

i oso tat type of nt ez goin ppl,
i wil b stubborn enuf when sum1 treat me badly,
sum ppl should aware of tis,
coz thes days,
thes ppl reali irritant me...

lastly,
i'm not interested in tat ppl situation...

So Happy 2Day!!!...

WOW!!!
its reali reac the time to fruit,
in the sports day,
krs won the best marchin team,
green house won th ebest marchin team,
and the overall too...

its reali happy when al the hardwork end with 'blossom',
although i'm fel tired now,
i stil thk it worth it...

YEAH!!!
last year in the skul,
finaly won the prizes tat we longin for,
a gud attempt had done,
a lot of hardwork had done,
finaly can rest for a while...

lookin 4ward to go to sunway nex wek,
can crazy for 1 whole day,
YUHU!!!

Jz Take It EZ!!!

2day,
blue mod cums so frequently,
jz suddenly dash over,
so tired,
so tired...

without a doubt,
2day is a torture to my soul,
i pressin down my feelins,
i told myself nt to act anyth,
control,
and take it ez...

i dun wanna knw,
dun wanna ask,
dun wanna take any action...

i cant let it down,
i cant surrender nw,
i shouldnt lose to myself,
never and ever...

its always like tis,
when i nearly totaly 4get abt tis,
its jz suddenly cross over my mind,
and i remember every detail of it...

as i prayed to god,
please giv me the strength to delete tis memory,
it cant b done by my own...
if can,
i dun wanna to met tis ppl again,
tis ppl jz an anonymous to me...

its nice,
bt ful wiz danger,
i dun wan tis type of feelin to be reoccur in my life,
4ever...

Another ANGER!!!

2day,
jz get knw of smth...

i ask myself,
i din do anyth wrong,
i dun knw y i wil get tis type of comment...

nw,
i get a conclusion:
he is jz a LITTLE CHILD,
a child tat ful wiz EGO,
he lov FAME...

i knw fame has a terrible price,
if he dun control it wel...

welllll...
he wil nvr ever get any closer wiz me,
he wil get nth from me,
coz...
i wil never accept ppl tat put on double side masks in front of me,
although i knw it b4,
i knw wat is his tot and aim...

i belief tat,
chance is alwayz given to thos who had prepared wel,
he is NOT!!!
he wil nt get chance from my hands...

I HATE!!!!!!

blue...LOL...

thes days...
blue mod cumin frequently,
i could hardly fel it,
although i thk its jz bcoz of bz works,
i find out tat its al my false...

the ppl is cumin bac soon,
i cant imagine wat would happen,
i knw tat i wasnt let go of tis,
i knw i stil care abt it,
i knw i couldnt lie anymore,
i knw its too late...

its may not b wat i thk it would b,
bt...
i stil cant stop to thk of it,
when i'm fre,
when my mind stuck,
its dash through my mind...

i knw i ned to let it b natural,
coz i knw wat i wanna to do nw,
wat i wanna to achiev,
i sure tat my heart and my soul had hardened,
i won't let it down...
NEVER!!!
coz i knw apologize is useless to me nw,
I NEVER 4GV!!!

onli like tis,
my heart wil fel better...

Congrat,my buddy!!!

jz nw...
jz receive a news,
my buddy tel me he get bac his beloved again,
congrat,
b4,
they break adi,
for abt 1 wek ar,
i thk lar...

haha,
anyway,
hope tat a short break had let u two b more mature,
in controlin ur love story...

hey buddy,
support u heartfulli,
i din hope tat ther wil b nex time i ned ponteng to teman u lar,
same word,
my bless alwayz b here,
blessin u 2,
hav a new page of love story,
GAMBATEH!!!

Wat a tired day!!!

2day,
one teacher retire,
then we prefect in charge in the retirement,
i gonna gv a speech,
OMGOSH!!!
reali dun knw wanna put my hands at wher on the stage,
so scared of showin tat my hands r shakin,
NO USE!!!
coz my hands and legs alwayz like tat der...

then gt pra-sukan,
gonna duty and ronda,
bt stil gt watc the sum events,
i ned to say sry to two buddies lar...
1 is coz i dun knw i wil gv her pressure when i show too muc expects from her,
bt i wanna say tat:
hc,
u reali can if u think u can made it,
tis time reali sry if tis type of support wil gv u pressure...
another buddy ar,
reali sry for bein disapear suddenli...

then 2day,
stil gt marchin practice,
i din march,
bt i bcum the jurulatih,
so tired tat i gt 3 marchin team to take care,
i should at least b ther to gv sum comment,
and c them march on the trek for several rounds,
so,
when reac rest time,
i gona go another team,
bt i knw they who involv in marchin reali so tired,
its hard to overcum al the presure tat we gav,
anyway,
gambateh,
i support u al...

nex wek is sukan wek,
rehearsal,
pra-sukan,
wow...
tired lar!!!
LOL...