OMGOSH...Functions or not?

i had been no self-discipline in study adi,
alwayz gat attracted by other things,
haiz...
hav lazy for a long time,
time to let the stupid brain function again,
gambateh man,
exam on the run adi,
although it stil hav 1 more week b4 it start wiz the 1st paper,
damn blue thes days,
lol...

bzbzbzbzbzbzbzbz..........

wat a bz day,
everyday same,
jz nw,
after tuition,
jz heard of nicholas' song--"日日夜夜"
suddenly flash of memories,
everyth look like fresh,
and jz deeply agree wiz the lyrics......

NO MOOD!!!

Arghs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wat a MESS?!
2day reali no MOOD at all,
HAIZ..........

A MInor Slip...A Big Deal...

2day,
i jz mention abt minor slip in my piano exam,
and bcoz of tis,
the examiner deduct me a lot of marks,
jz bcoz of MINOR SLIP...

2day,
i made another minor slip,
tat everyone shouldn't made,
it cum wiz a big loss...

ya,
i reali deal wiz the situation,
coz its my fault,
i 4gv the 1 tat made me tis loss,
coz i should b responsible on tis...

sum day b4,
i jz thk of al the hardship is goin to fruit,
bt nw,
i hv to recover the loss,
and then onli start earnin profit again...

i reali awake nw,
i should b aware of every minor thing in life,
i shouldn't say:i 4get...
its a painful lesson,
bt i won't K.O.
i should stand from wher i fal,
tis situation wil never occur in my life again,
NEVER!!!

该怎么办？...结果-------

想了又想，
这问题我一想过好多遍，
也想了好久，
逃避了好久，
因为，
我也不知怎么回答...

以我这样理性的思想，
所有可能的结果，
过程，
心情，
我都仔细想过了...

我应以大局为重？
我应以自我感受为重？
我是多么想自私这一次...

最近，
常常会让我无意间听到许多事情，
该怎么办呢？
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结果：
我已说过我不愿揭开伤口，
就算它依然在痛，
也不愿让它透气，
因为，
我不想别人在伤口上洒盐...

对不起，
我真的会为了感受放弃大局，
请原谅我的自私，
我不曾有过这么过份的要求，
我只求这一次的公平对待，
让我也有过份的一次...

莫名其妙...

jz nw,
i jz knw the big different btw addin and approval,
haiz,
suddenli get problem in it...

Conflicts...

in life,
conflicts alwayz occur,
spontaneously,
evth wil b mess up,
decisions should b made immediately or in given time,
bt its nth different in the length of time,
conflicts made evth blurr,
decisions ade mayb wrong....

stil,
nw i'm in conflicts,
to choose either my selfishness pr frenz selfishness?
to choose either my feelins or frenz feelins?
anyway,
i stil dun knw how to decide yet,
i knw u al so hope tat i wil do,
bt,
can u al thk of my conflicts...

LOL...^.^

HAHA...
jz won two competition,
haha...
reali feelin happy,
1 is the zon compt,
nw waitin to proceed on to daerah,
another 1 is skul 1,
so thinkin whether wanna represent skul for tis competition ain't...

wow,
feelin so gud,
happy for my effort is bein satisfied,
b4 the zon compt,
i reali scared tat i as the leader of the team,
my idea is it go for the wrong way,
coz gt sm members gt throw out sum quest tat the feelin nt gud and so on,
bt nw,
evth verified,
my idea is acceptable,
hopefully we wil proceed on until the end...

nw preparin for krs gatherin,
dancin,
drama,
oso preparin for own skul gatherin,
al the rules,
letter,
moreover,
bc club gatherin in schedule...

when hard works blossom,
its reali happy,
joyful,
determination is important,
plus sacrifices,
its worth...

Some Words saw in FS...

NeVeR SaY "I LOVE U" iF uE DoN't ReAlLy CaRe...
NeVeR TaLk AbOuT "FEELINGS" iF ThEy AreN't ReALly ThErE...
NeVeR HoLd My "HAND" iF Ue ArE GoInG BrEaK My HeART...
NeVer Say "Ue aRe GoInG tO" iF Ue DoN't PlaN tO StaRt...
NeVeR LooK iNtO mY "EYES" iF AlL uE dO iS LIE...
NeVeR SaY "HI" iF Ue ReAlLy mEan GoOdByE...
NeVeR SaY "FOREVER" iF uE nOt ReAlLy MeAn ThAt...